In January

2014_05_Life-of-Pix-free-stock-photo-quebec-snow-nature

I always die a little in January.

January, March and November–I die during those months.

I try to keep myself in existence by doing meaningless things.

In January, my form becomes extra delicate.

I’m sensitive to everything and everyone.

That may be why I want to break free from all during that month.

If we start dating in June, by January I’ll be looking for reasons to break up with you.

And yet there is also a neediness in me that I cannot squelch.

A sudden desire to call all my old friends will rise up.

I want everyone to love me in January.

But I have no intention of loving back.

In January, I’m attracted to everything new.

The world seems so old then. I feel so old then.

I want youth, new shiny toys, new superficial people to distract me

In January I am the worst version of myself desperately looking for the best parts just to keep going

It takes everything in me just to keep going

Soundtrack

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s